Let Go, Hold On

I feel like, I just might
Finally start to let go of this
The pain is real, the past is sealed
But maybe I can let these cuts heal

But will it still hold me back
Even after I've forgotten?
Will I ever be forgiven?
By myself, and by those that I've let down?

Every word I speak or sing
Seems to pose a valid question
Am I real, what can I be?
Will moving forward set me free?

I'll tell you know, 'bit of what I feel;
I hate to look into those eyes
To see reflections unaffected
By the way I see you in my own

Every time I fall in love
I find myself on the ground again.
Every time I find a heart to hold
I seem to crush it if it won't crush me first.

I wish I could find, a perfect balance
But for now I think I'll focus on me
Getting on with life, becoming strong
Taking everything in stride

I see what you've done,
It crushed me, too.
I tried it first, but found out I'm not
that much of a coward.

So now I've got to appreciate
What I have in the here and now.
I think I'll hold on to the love I have
Even though it just ain't the same.